For Today
Our ability as humans to overcome insurmountable odds, the near impossibility that we should even exist in a universe that contains in the same space both the unimaginably big and the small small small even smaller of smalls, living among mountain lions and mitochondria and meteors and BLANCHE two doors down who is just so mad about whoever is singing at the football super bowl this year, that we could get sick, heal, develop a medicine that involves putting that very disease into our bodies in small amounts that somehow prevents us from getting sick with that disease in the future, pluck strings on instruments that create sonic tones that can be pleasing and disturbing and take you back to 2004 and the way she smelled, take plants out of the ground and meat from animals and add heat and salt and spice and stir them together to make a meal for you and your kids and there’s no way they are going to eat it but hey at least you are trying, all the while we gain, maintain, and lose relationships amidst the complexity of emotions and consciousness, falling in and out of love, pushing through heartbreaking disasters and celebrating the miracle of any kind of new life while still managing to get the oil changed and the bathroom cleaned and the lunches made and the homework done and the parent teacher conferences at 7pm on a Tuesday for a 2nd grader who keeps sneaking toys to school, gets them confiscated, and the teacher hands you an orange 5 gallon bucket of fidgets and super heroes and oh hey there’s my watch and yes I know I promise you I’m trying to keep this stuff at home even as far as patting him down with his hands spread against the car before I drop him off,…
how it is that I don’t walk around staring at the stars and the trees and you and kiss the ground in paralyzing gratitude and devastating wonder is a mystery to me.
So for today, thank you, thank you, thank you, for all of it.